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We’re so grateful the weather was beautiful today! We’ve got this! 💪 #alonetogether #istayhomefor #girlpower #aaa #HopeGraceFaith

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Today officially marks the 1 month countdown to the release of my memoir “Hope, Grace & Faith”. You can still pre-order my book! Link in my bio! 💖#HopeGraceFaith #aaa #memories #linkinbio - 🤍 🤍 📸 @mrs_aldridge1 🌸 @cheekwood

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📍Runyon Canyon Park 🖤 . . 📸 —> @callmejessssss

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1 of the few pictures that I will post from the girls spring performance tonight. So proud of all the kids that performed tonight! ♥️🙏

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How Addie reeeeaaaalllly felt about taking photos with mommy! 😂😂 There are more fun and amazing photos to come! It’s all for the love of #aaa my babies #hope #grace #faith ♥️♥️ .... .💄💄 @locksbyleslie . 📸 @mrs_aldridge1 . 🌺 @cheekwood

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The best view comes after the hardest climb. Happy Thursday! 😊 #ownyourstory #loveyourself #trusttheprocess

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Dawn called Jeremy. “When she told him I was having a miscarriage, the way she played the role of concerned mother was so d*mn convincing even I couldn’t tell she was lying,” Leah shared. “I remember listening to her talking to Jeremy on the phone and wondering how the hell I had let this happen.” Leah informed the producers that night, and they sent out a camera crew to film the alleged “miscarriage.”" ["image_caption"]=> string(0) "" } [2]=> array(9) { ["image_title"]=> string(0) "" ["first_look"]=> string(0) "" ["animated_icons"]=> string(12) "fas fa-heart" ["attachment_select"]=> string(5) "embed" ["image_id"]=> string(0) "" ["image"]=> bool(false) ["embed_url"]=> string(40) "https://www.instagram.com/p/B19Q4ZMlcV1/" ["image_description"]=> string(944) "Of this experience, Leah shared “it was the worst thing I had ever been through.” She shares in her memoir, “I can look back now without regret, but for the longest time, I wasn’t okay with the choice I had made. It felt so dark because it was hidden.” She went on:
“It wasn’t until I was finally able to bring myself to tell Jeremy what had really happened that I started to realize that as long as I was living with the lie it would keep eating away at me. I carried the pain and the guilt around with me for years, until I finally got to the point where I could hold myself accountable for my choices without punishing myself for them.” (Excerpts via The Sun.)
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Dawn called Jeremy. “When she told him I was having a miscariage, the way she played the role of concerned mother was so d*mn convincing even I couldn’t tell she was lying,” Leah shared. “I remember listening to her talking to Jeremy on the phone and wondering how the hell I had let this happen.” Leah informed the producers that night, and they sent out a camera crew to film the alleged “miscarriage.” " ["image_caption"]=> string(0) "" } [8]=> array(9) { ["image_title"]=> string(0) "" ["first_look"]=> string(0) "" ["animated_icons"]=> string(12) "fas fa-heart" ["attachment_select"]=> string(5) "embed" ["image_id"]=> string(0) "" ["image"]=> bool(false) ["embed_url"]=> string(40) "https://www.instagram.com/p/BwAVl6VlUov/" ["image_description"]=> string(913) "Of this experience, Leah shared “it was the worst thing I had ever been through.” She shares in her memoir, “I can look back now without regret, but for the longest time, I wasn’t okay with the choice I had made. 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We’re so grateful the weather was beautiful today! We’ve got this! 💪 #alonetogether #istayhomefor #girlpower #aaa #HopeGraceFaith

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Today officially marks the 1 month countdown to the release of my memoir “Hope, Grace & Faith”. You can still pre-order my book! Link in my bio! 💖#HopeGraceFaith #aaa #memories #linkinbio - 🤍 🤍 📸 @mrs_aldridge1 🌸 @cheekwood

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📍Runyon Canyon Park 🖤 . . 📸 —> @callmejessssss

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1 of the few pictures that I will post from the girls spring performance tonight. So proud of all the kids that performed tonight! ♥️🙏

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At the end of the day, we will always be a team! 👊🏼♥️ @jcalvert505 #teenmom2 #reunionweekend #somuchfun Styled by - @jennrosadostylist 💄 by - @thenicoleblais

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How Addie reeeeaaaalllly felt about taking photos with mommy! 😂😂 There are more fun and amazing photos to come! It’s all for the love of #aaa my babies #hope #grace #faith ♥️♥️ .... .💄💄 @locksbyleslie . 📸 @mrs_aldridge1 . 🌺 @cheekwood

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The best view comes after the hardest climb. Happy Thursday! 😊 #ownyourstory #loveyourself #trusttheprocess

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If you need me, I’ll be where my reputation don’t precede me. ♥️🦋🕊💫

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Be still my heart 😍 #family #aaa

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✌🏼of my girls 🤗 @momma.dawn ♥️ #aaa #hope #grace #aligrace

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I’m always the mom that all the kids love to be around! I love being a Mommy and Auntiee! Sometimes though, in Motherhood life gets extra real and we just need some support from other Mommas going through the same things as us. The other day I was looking for advice on strep throat because Addie had had it and it was awesome to get insight from other mom’s from the @peanut app who had dealt with it too. It felt so good to relate to other real moms dealing with real life! The peanut app is so great for connecting with other moms, whether for advice, meet ups, referrals and even offering clothes and baby gear. You can chat with so many other moms about the good and bad of Motherhood! I’m loving this app! #peanutapp #ad

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Missing someone right now.... #babygirl #addie

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She opened up about not having been “over” Jeremy at the time but was also considering the possibility of getting back together with Jeremy. Leah recalls being “twisted up in knots” about the decision at the time, but when Jeremy proposed to her, she accepted. That’s when she found out she was pregnant with Jeremy’s child. “I was devastated,” Leah recalls in her memoir. “Having a baby with Jeremy would be the end of any chance Corey and I had of making things work for our family. I was sad for myself, but mostly I was sad for our girls. 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Dawn called Jeremy. “When she told him I was having a miscarriage, the way she played the role of concerned mother was so d*mn convincing even I couldn’t tell she was lying,” Leah shared. “I remember listening to her talking to Jeremy on the phone and wondering how the hell I had let this happen.” Leah informed the producers that night, and they sent out a camera crew to film the alleged “miscarriage.”" ["image_caption"]=> string(0) "" } [2]=> array(9) { ["image_title"]=> string(0) "" ["first_look"]=> string(0) "" ["animated_icons"]=> string(12) "fas fa-heart" ["attachment_select"]=> string(5) "embed" ["image_id"]=> string(0) "" ["image"]=> bool(false) ["embed_url"]=> string(40) "https://www.instagram.com/p/B19Q4ZMlcV1/" ["image_description"]=> string(944) "Of this experience, Leah shared “it was the worst thing I had ever been through.” She shares in her memoir, “I can look back now without regret, but for the longest time, I wasn’t okay with the choice I had made. It felt so dark because it was hidden.” She went on:
“It wasn’t until I was finally able to bring myself to tell Jeremy what had really happened that I started to realize that as long as I was living with the lie it would keep eating away at me. I carried the pain and the guilt around with me for years, until I finally got to the point where I could hold myself accountable for my choices without punishing myself for them.” (Excerpts via The Sun.)
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Dawn called Jeremy. “When she told him I was having a miscariage, the way she played the role of concerned mother was so d*mn convincing even I couldn’t tell she was lying,” Leah shared. “I remember listening to her talking to Jeremy on the phone and wondering how the hell I had let this happen.” Leah informed the producers that night, and they sent out a camera crew to film the alleged “miscarriage.” " ["image_caption"]=> string(0) "" } [8]=> array(9) { ["image_title"]=> string(0) "" ["first_look"]=> string(0) "" ["animated_icons"]=> string(12) "fas fa-heart" ["attachment_select"]=> string(5) "embed" ["image_id"]=> string(0) "" ["image"]=> bool(false) ["embed_url"]=> string(40) "https://www.instagram.com/p/BwAVl6VlUov/" ["image_description"]=> string(913) "Of this experience, Leah shared “it was the worst thing I had ever been through.” She shares in her memoir, “I can look back now without regret, but for the longest time, I wasn’t okay with the choice I had made. It felt so dark because it was hidden.” She went on:
“It wasn’t until I was finally able to bring myself to tell Jeremy what had really happened that I started to realize that as long as I was living with the lie it would keep eating away at me. I carried the pain and the guilt around with me for years, until I finally got to the point where I could hold myself accountable for my choices without punishing myself for them.” (Excerpts via The Sun)
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We’re so grateful the weather was beautiful today! We’ve got this! 💪 #alonetogether #istayhomefor #girlpower #aaa #HopeGraceFaith

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Today officially marks the 1 month countdown to the release of my memoir “Hope, Grace & Faith”. You can still pre-order my book! Link in my bio! 💖#HopeGraceFaith #aaa #memories #linkinbio - 🤍 🤍 📸 @mrs_aldridge1 🌸 @cheekwood

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📍Runyon Canyon Park 🖤 . . 📸 —> @callmejessssss

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1 of the few pictures that I will post from the girls spring performance tonight. So proud of all the kids that performed tonight! ♥️🙏

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How Addie reeeeaaaalllly felt about taking photos with mommy! 😂😂 There are more fun and amazing photos to come! It’s all for the love of #aaa my babies #hope #grace #faith ♥️♥️ .... .💄💄 @locksbyleslie . 📸 @mrs_aldridge1 . 🌺 @cheekwood

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The best view comes after the hardest climb. Happy Thursday! 😊 #ownyourstory #loveyourself #trusttheprocess

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If you need me, I’ll be where my reputation don’t precede me. ♥️🦋🕊💫

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Be still my heart 😍 #family #aaa

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I’m always the mom that all the kids love to be around! I love being a Mommy and Auntiee! Sometimes though, in Motherhood life gets extra real and we just need some support from other Mommas going through the same things as us. The other day I was looking for advice on strep throat because Addie had had it and it was awesome to get insight from other mom’s from the @peanut app who had dealt with it too. It felt so good to relate to other real moms dealing with real life! The peanut app is so great for connecting with other moms, whether for advice, meet ups, referrals and even offering clothes and baby gear. You can chat with so many other moms about the good and bad of Motherhood! I’m loving this app! #peanutapp #ad

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Jeremy Calvert Speaks Out On Leah's Abortion | Celebuzz

Jeremy Calvert Speaks Out On Leah’s Abortion

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Leah Messer spilled a lot of new information in her upcoming memoir. From traumatizing childhood experiences to abortions, Leah has lived a life, to say the least.

Now, her ex Jeremy Calvert is speaking up about how he felt when he learned Leah’s “miscarriage” was actually an abortion.

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Source: MTV

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